Crow and peacock's day

Unwittingly, i dint update my blog or notes for quite a long time. Everytime when i gaze on my laptop screen, i got lots of unspeakable words in my mind. I know i gonna have full of different frame of mind. Yea, my heart is down again. My thoughts and inclinations are standing in the middle of battlefield. Sometimes, i think myself is staunch and unyielding enough to face all the obstacles. However, i feel helpless when the thing comes bad. Although i know i am living in a realism world with many those reality people around, but somehow i still put a tiny hope to meet those kind-hearted. Dont worry, there are still have plenty of good one. I strongly believe man at birth is fundamentally good in nature!

Everyday, I finger crossed tightly to tell my Heavenly Dad that i want a good day, pleasant day, happy day, fantastic day....But, its still difficult to escape from all kinds of grievances. As usual, i ended up to gulp all the tears and cries inside without leaving any trace. i always believe when u treat others good, you will get the same return from them as well. Unfortunately, the fact is always cruel until i cant breathe well sometimes and unbearable.

Admittedly, i confront those difficulties, i still grateful i have God in my life. Thanks God that i am a christian as i know how to forget and forgive. Its not an easy task but we need to learn for it in ourm whole life. Thanks God, i am controling my tougue not to say those malicious words eventhough when facing something that really impervious. We all know that we hardly to please everyone and we hardly please by someone too. So, we still need to be happy everyday as God with u and me. Holy ghost, please be with me and pour down all the smiles, happiness upon me.

i miss my mommy.