A frame of mind

The weather is scorching hot. I hate to feel my head swimming so much.
My heart and mind are preoccupied with something else.
Something that i cant express out from my mouth. Its complicated.
Every decisions come all of a sudden.....I need some advices.
Inside my heart, there are too much kind of sentiments.
Sometimes, i am guessing that am i having a emotional disease.
Haha. It sounds ridiculous, right?

i am not willing to accept somebody's instructions without a murmur, so d please dont let other take u for granted.
No idea, i am fearing solely for something.
However, i feel reluctant to part with someone too.
i am not purposely to get an outcome cross to ur purpose.
I just need mutual aids from u so much.
i dont wish to be at odds with u.
An endless controversy, i dont like.

arghh....I have too much thoughts over my brain.
Its full and gonna to burst out like an explosion.
All feelings are going to flare up too.
I truly need a break and relax myself. Pray hard for myself.
I always like to strive for something that i wish to have.

i realised sth disorder of my body.
i missed my mummy badly.

T.T